Tuesday, August 12, 2014

// a n e w h o m e //

I have tears as I think of having our own place.  No, we have not bought a house or even rented a huge apartment.  We live in a house that has three different apartments.  We rent a tiny two bedroom, but I cannot express the gratitude I feel right now.  You see, I really try to keep all my public posts as positive as possible.  But, I will say this:  These past few years have been both heaven and hell for our family.  Heaven, because it was full of beautiful moments.  Beautiful moments in the midst of a terrible, terrible storm.  We lived in a broken down shack for two years: we all slept in a mattress on the ground in a room so tiny it only fit our bed.  Our living space was a tiny room and besides the bedroom it was the only room where our kids were allowed.  We had to block off the kitchen and bathroom because they were unsafe.  I know we lived in the most beautiful place on earth (basically) and that accounted for all the beautiful, beautiful moments.  However, practically, we were going a little insane  Now?  We are renting a normal apartment with a HUGE backyard!  Wildlife surrounds us (even bears.  but that's a different story. yikes!) This morning, as I watched our boys giggle and play around our backyard, I began to cry.  I literally had huge tears streaming down my face because seeing my boys play outside, without being right next to a busy road, made my heart soar with gratitude.  As hard as it's been, I am so thankful to my husband for not giving up and getting us here. We have a long ways to go, but as we move forward we get to witness all of this: 

(all photos taken outside were taken in our backyard!  except the butterflies.  those were from my parent's garden.)  

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  1. I felt the exact same way as you last year when my family and I were finally able to move. We had been in a tiny one bedroom-on a busy noisy city street with loud, terrible neighbors. I couldn't believe that's where I had to bring my brand new baby home to...but we survived until we could finally move. I can't tell you how happy my heart was when I saw my daughter playing outside in the grass or simply looking out the window! I'm so glad you can be in the space you are in now and feel that happiness! :)

  2. This is beautiful. My heart feels full for you!!! x

  3. I love this post for it's beautiful honesty. I've really struggled--having a baby & being in an apartment. It helps to know that others are in the same boat, making this journey & knowing in the midst of it that love can happen anywhere, that beauty exists where we find it, that there is always something to be grateful for.

  4. Such a lovely post. And thanks for opening up! It often feels like everyone online are living these perfect lives. It's unrealistic and frankly, untrue. Thanks for reminding me! And thanks for the reminder to just keep going. Sometimes you've just got to push ahead when times are tough. Good things are coming!

  5. Such a lovely and honest post. I am so happy for you and your lovely family...



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