I feel like I've been neglecting this space a bit. A lot has been going on. I could list it all, but I'd rather not. Life is too short and has too much potential to make a list of all the difficulties. However the main task ahead is our decision to move back east. It's a huge decision and one that takes a lot of planning. We have so much to do, and the moments have been both exciting and bittersweet.
We don't want to leave and yet we do: it's this tension, the energy that both pulls us away and keeps us clinging on. How is it possible to feel two things at once? From experience, it's possible and quite common.
Around Christmas time, Jimmy and I had a conversation. We began to explore the possibility of moving back to New Jersey, where all our family currently lives. We grew up there; right in the middle of the New York metro area. We lived where towns melt into towns, and cars beep at you if you actually stop at the stop signs. Well, jimmy did. I grew up where there is a bit more space and across the way from a farm. <3 According to Jimmy, "I grew up in the middle of nowhere!"
It wasn't until recently that we began to actually plan. With the plan comes new stresses, but also new excitement. We cannot wait to have a bit of break (hello, sleepovers at the grandparents house!) and seeing our kids so loved by family. Our boys have two cousins and I can imagine them all as the best of friends as well. It will be incredibly refreshing and I always love a change. (i may or may not absolutely love change. haha!)
But leaving Santa Cruz will be heartbreaking. We tried to make it work and gave it our all. Jimmy has had many jobs, but nothing worked. We have worked and worked and pushed ourselves to the limit. Now, it's time to refresh and regroup, and hopefully, it will be our time of dreams realized. We will keep this place in our hearts forever. It was our first home as a married couple, where our kids were born and it's home. It always will be.
There last months here will be spent well. We have a million things to do, but enjoying this place until the very last minute here is on our list as well. We will continue walking and always enjoying the beautiful space we have fallen in love with. Tomorrow we are meeting new and dear friends in Big Sur. We could do other things or save on gas, but why? It's more important to spend time with sweet friends.
Today, we went to one of our favorite spots and hung out with the children before Jimmy had to work. Jimmy, my talented photographer husband, took these photos! <3
Also, a few announcements:
I hit 2000 followers on instagram! I've been talking to a few people in hopes of doing a giveaway. This giveaway is specifically a THANK YOU! Daily, I'm overwhelmed by the love and support i've received through blogging and social media. I would still like to include another company in my giveaway, so if you are interested let me know! (email me at email@example.com)
AND Jimmy and I are launching our photography site soon. We have decided to take our hobby professional and if you would like any photos send me a message!
Lastly, on our way back to New Jersey we want to meet some of the families we've "met" through instagram. We will be putting together a series when we get back. I will be posting our route soon and if you live on it and would like to meet, then let us know! (more info soon!)