Thursday, September 20, 2012

My Dreams Haven't Changed

I am so satisfied in being a momma.  As difficult as it can be, I know I have a purpose and I so enjoy the job of raising a child.  or two. :)  It is a huge part of my vision for my life and always has been.  However, there are more aspects to my life and my overall vision.  I think of my favorite characters in my most loved books and I can see that it is there complexities that win me over.  The author developed the characters to be more than just generalizations.  As a mom, I am not completely predictable.  I have dreams that do not fit perfectly into the recognized mold of being a mother.

and you know what?
that's okay. more than, even.

But it is so easy to forget those aspirations.  Someone (my husband) asked me the other day if I wanted to tell our friends my vision.  For a second, I blanked.  I could not even muster up the energy to tell it and honestly, it was like I could not even remember it.  I think this is mostly because I just gave birth 4 weeks ago and I'm still getting used to being a mommy to two, however, I do want to be careful that I do not get so busy that I forget my vision.  I've heard (too often) that parents gave up their dreams for their children and it's said as if the children should appreciate this.  However, I firmly believe that the best thing for a child is to see their parents believe in the importance of their dreams.  Sure, it may change and sacrifices can be made for the sake of our children, but we should not give them up and act as if our children were the reason.  Our children need to see our complexities not only as parents, but as people.  They will respect us and they will follow us.  They will be happy because they will see our steadfastness to what we have been called to.  I, for one, am so excited to see my dreams come to fruition and in turn, encourage my children to do the same.

I want to, someday, become a doula.  I love birth and everything about it.  The process of pregnancy, no matter how difficult as it can be, is a sacred aspect our our nature as women.

I want to publish a book of poetry.

I want to, somehow, help women with eating disorders.  My struggle and redemption cannot be for nothing, and I will somehow find a way for that story to help others find redemption.

I want to travel the world.

I want to have a successful blog.

These are some of the things I desire and they are good.

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